Why Can't I Seem to Be Free of My Need for Stuff?

Why Can't I Seem to Be Free of My Need for Stuff?

I just needed one thing. 

Target had hooked me from the moment I walked in as my eyes danced around the dollar section and my hands started methodically filling my basket full of stuff.

Shaking myself out of the Target trance, I made my way to the back of the store. Fortunately, by the time I collected the one item I needed, buyer’s remorse had started to creep in. I had a basket full of things I didn’t need

So, I put them all back.

And I walked out of the store with the one item that I needed.

But, why did I get sucked into the Target trance in the first place and feel like I needed a basket full of stuff?

Why can’t I seem to connect with others?

Why can’t I seem to connect with others?

Can I confess something to you? People scare me.

I love people, I really do. But I am an introvert. I love being alone. I love being silent. My recurring nightmare is a room full of people where I am forced to mingle and make small talk. (Some of you might be wondering at this point why I am a minister…you have a point.)

Small talk terrifies me. I feel like I never know what to say to people. I feel uncomfortable with awkward silences. I have a hard time thinking of good questions to ask to get to know people. I feel completely incapable of breaking through the “invisible wall” of conversation, moving from small talk to truly intimate and enjoyable relational connection.

Why can’t I seem to break through in my prayer life?

Why can’t I seem to break through in my prayer life?

When I was in junior high, my mom encouraged me to have a daily quiet time with the Father through Scripture reading and prayer. After practicing this habit (more or less!) for several years through high school, college, and my early married years, I came to a point where I really wanted to hear the still, small voice of God. I knew that I heard from the Father through the Scriptures, everyday events, and conversations with other people, but I really wanted to hear the voice of God audibly in some way. I believed that I just hadn’t allowed enough time and space to hear Him, so I started getting up really early in the morning, so I could just sit in complete silence and listen for a long time…but nothing. I experienced a deafening silence that profoundly discouraged me. On a subconscious level, I resigned myself to a distant relationship with God at best and felt a deep sense of rejection. I still believed in the Father, Son, and Spirit, and that they were good, but my lack of belief in the nature of His love was a barrier (and perhaps I hadn’t experienced His love in all the ways I needed for healing).

Why can’t I seem to read my Bible consistently?

Why can’t I seem to read my Bible consistently?

“I want to read the Bible, but I just can’t understand it.” “I want to read the Bible, but it’s just too boring.” “I want to read the Bible, but I just don’t seem to have the time.” Do these sound familiar to you? Let me tell you a story that might help you in this struggle. 

When I was in fourth grade, my Dad and Mom bought me a comic book Bible called The Picture Bible. I loved that thing! It told the whole story of scripture and because it was in comic book form, I could understand it and it was really interesting.

Stories from New Zealand

Stories from New Zealand

Missions is a priority for Plainfield Christian Church, so I travel a few times each year to visit, serve, and encourage a handful of our Global Impact Partners. 

Mike Isaacs, Brenda Isaacs, and I had the privilege of traveling to Auckland, New Zealand in September to visit Jill Shaw, one of our Global Impact partners. 

Our short visit was jam-packed! We did whatever we could to help Jill and learn more about her work.