This is never going to work.
I thought those words as I stared at my uneaten meal trying my hardest to muster up as much conversation as I could with my date who just finished his third round of “all-you-can-eat” fries.
Between bites, he said, “What do you want to do after dinner?”
Umm, something fun? “Anything is fine, maybe go for a walk?”
“Sure, we can walk around Wal-Mart.”
Let’s just say our last date ended in walking around WAL-MART. That’s right. WAL-MART.
Clearly, it was for the best that he and I didn’t work out (again… WAL-MART), but that night still left me feeling frustrated, worn-down, unworthy, and down-right SINGLE. I was in my early twenties, about to graduate, and I’m on my own… again. I was so done with being single.
That season of singleness was a time of loneliness and self-pity. It was easy for Satan to attack my insecurities of worth and value! My poor view of singleness became the fuel for the raging fire of self-pity. And I couldn’t shake it.
I believed I wasn’t worth it.
The truth was that God didn’t have that “We should go to WAL-MART as a date” man as part of my future. Instead, He used that part of my life to uncover those lies and to magnify God’s truth.